Fuck You

I'll keep this short, since it's almost 6 am and I should sleep soon. One of my supposed really good friends from back home is basically ignoring me. Initially I was upset. Whenenver I feel like I'm losing a friend or being ignored by one, I go into panic mode. Well you know what, not anymore. Fuck her if she's gonna treat me like shit and completely disregard the fact that I was her friend when almost no one else was. I did shit for her. I cleaned her fucking apartment for her. I'm tired of feeling all anxious and scared whenever this happens and I develop a fear that I did something wrong. I don't know what your deal is, but I'm sick of this favoritism bull shit that you pull on me. Oh yeah, I'll let you hang out with me and run errands with me and spy on my boyfriend for me, but once other people enter the picture, you're just another person.
I had a really great night tonight. I had a nice dinner and got pretty trashed with some really nice people. I guess from the last post, you can see that I'm sort of trying to change myself. Well, not exactly change who I am, but more accept who I am and not appologize for it and embrace it and have fun. The main thing is: I'm no longer going to let anyone make me feel any way I don't want to feel.
I'm really liking this so far.

Nigh-nigh batches!